This essay is an attempt to unify various bits of understanding and experience I've had recently regarding the energetic healing portions of my magical practices. There are a few things I will not be going into in detail in this writing, but are still taken as presuppositions in order to describe what I've experienced. One such point is that "energy,"
whether it be called ki, orgone, vril, magnetic fluid, LVX, or anything else, is also information. Perhaps this is common knowledge but it was a real moment of understanding for me. On the other hand, perhaps I'm the only one that experiences it that way; I don't know. Please keep in mind that at no point am I trying to describe the way anything "is;" I only wish to describe to myself, as accurately as possible, the things I have experienced and the ways that I've experienced them. For the sake of spreading information, and out of curiosity about whether others experience things similarly, I make it available.
The complicated interaction between muscular tensions, energetic blockages (collapsed aura, buildup of stagnant or toxic energy, disconnected chakras, etc), psychological trauma, and other factors create a complex situation to treat. In my experience, it often seems to happen so automatically that I don't need to think of treating every level of damage at once. Indeed, only by learning to treat each one independently have I come to be aware of all of them at once.
When I first was called to conduct this sort of healing, the most natural and obvious way of directing the energy/information was using my hands. This happened so automatically that it was very easy at first, but I wanted to learn what exactly I was doing. I eventually figured out that the healing became much easier when I wasn't actually making physical contact, and with that I soon came to realize that, while the energy was easier to direct with muscular movements, rather than purely with my mind, I could bind complex energetic processes to simple movements. I had a vision of a sort of cosmic keyboard, where one finger's movement could play a whole chord of energetic notes, as it were. With every slight movement of every finger thus affecting a wealth of energetic changes, progress became much more rapid. From there, it wasn't long before arm movements came into play, and rapidly I was using my whole body, contorting into unbelievable shapes, building up to a high level of tension in various and uncommon angles and poses, and then gradually bringing the tension down to a deep relaxation.
A brief but necessary digression. Imagine the smallest measurable unit of muscular movement, in the smallest measurable unit of muscle; I will call this a bit for simplicity. Bits will be back shortly.
The interaction of the aforementioned physical, psychological, and energetic issues, if experienced tactically or visually, have come to form a sort of higher-dimensional field or shape with a discernible, information-dense topology. Healing the wounds this field seems to represent can be like picking an extra-dimensional lock; like solving a riddle, often coming down to a key word or phrase, while at the same time manipulating my muscles into extreme but highly specific tensions, which often puts me in a pose or posture - almost as a side-effect, frequently - that is 'speaking' on a symbolic or archetypal level. However, it is not so much one correct answer or pose or tension that brings the solution to the problem; rather, it is more of an information flow. More information flowing through and across the wound topology results in a greater number of solutions being found. I have experienced this as the muscular and energetic changes creating a feeling of shuffling through different possible futures. Each bit of muscular movement corresponds to at least one bit of energy, and thus information. The deviation of the ratio of muscular movement to energy/information appears to correspond to the deviation from the linear time line, that is, deviation from the future that would have been experienced had the healing not taken place. This is to say that the greater the amount of energy/information being moved through the wound and thus through the consciousness of the person being healed, the greater the chances of previously unlikely futures manifesting, as well as even more unlikely futures being adjacent to the resulting linear timeline. Thus, a more severe contortion, utilizing a great deal of my muscles, is able to (and required to) affect a greater degree of change than just using my hands.
Back to the topology of the wounds: it isn't regular. It has the multi-dimensional equivalents of pits, holes, peaks, valleys, and many other extra-spatial features. It can do all manner of things that are somewhat difficult for me to describe, higher-dimensional hyperboloids and the like. No doubt if I had a higher math education I could do a better job of describing this, but I feel lucky I know as much as I do from teaching myself and experiencing these things directly. The feeling of trying to heal these wounds is somewhat like attempting to align tumblers on a multi-dimensional cylinder lock, but recently, I've been encountering even more complex forms. It's as though I'm completely immersed in field of sensory input; every smallest measurable bit of sensory information is both a product and a facet of the field. The entire field as a whole is a lock, and it is made up of smaller locks, which are themselves made up of locks, all the way down to the smallest measurable energy/information bit of the field. Each lock requires a different solution. "Adjacent" locks, which may not be experienced as adjacent due to their extra-dimensional nature, will not necessarily have similar solutions or even appear to be related. What's more, the solutions may be in wildly diverse forms, one being a phrase or word that is eventually found after applying enough energy, the next being a certain combination of muscular tensions, or a pose or posture, the next one requiring a purely energetic application, and so on. On the one hand, the solutions of the component locks all add up to the solution of the larger lock; but again, the higher-dimensional features mean that it may not be observably related immediately. Generally, meditation over time has lead to an understanding, but at the time the issues are often confusing. What's more, while I often experience sort of the "flavor" as it were of the issue being treated, the person being healed frequently is experiencing an entirely different facet of the issue, so that only by putting together what we both experienced afterwards is anything approaching a complete picture found.
Given the number of solutions I need to find to heal this wound (which might just be one issue at hand!), even more complex applications of energy/information, such as the cosmic keyboard, have not proven particularly effective. The best method I've found thus far is to completely immerse myself in the wound topology or "lock field," while at the same time enveloping the wound topology in a greater field of energy/information. Immersed in the lock field, I apply "outward" or exteriorizing pressure; while the outer field applies "inward" or interiorizing pressure. The lock field / wound topology is thus suspended in a sort of vacuum between the two solution-finding fields, which automatically try to equalize their pressure, this equalization resulting in the wound being healed. All solutions still cannot be supplied instantly, however, as one lock may require a solution that is antipodal to the required solution of an adjacent lock; somewhat as if one solution is at the zenith of a wave and the next is at the nadir. Still, both the interiorizing and exteriorizing fields can be programmed to find the maximum number of solutions for each smallest measurable unit of time. This is another facet that, when I was starting out, was nearly entirely automatic; but as the problems I face have gotten more complex, I've had to learn to do manually (or at least be able to describe to myself) what needs to happen in order for it to work.
The most effective way that I've found of reaching the maximum number of solutions for each smallest bit of time is a simultaneous vorticitation of information/energy, occurring at every level and at every scale. Vorticitation is a feature of higher-dimensional geometries whereby all points on a surface (for example, a hypersphere, the fourth-dimensional version of a three-dimensional sphere) simultaneously pull themselves inside-out, through themselves, to their antipodes on the other side of the surface. Informationally, this means that one bit of information becomes and expresses its total opposite, as well as every degree of difference between itself and its opposite. The amount of information that can be expressed by even the smallest bit of energy is therefore phenomenally large.
[As an aside, I was exposed to this sensation before I knew there was a word for it; the very day after I experienced it, I came across Peter J. Carroll's Vorticitating Hypersphere Cosmology and was quite surprised to see that his hypotheses described much of what I had experienced the night before.]
So: the exteriorizing and interiorizing fields as wholes are vorticitating over, against and through the lock field; smaller component areas of the fields (corresponding and forming to the topological features of the wound) are vorticitating through the smaller component locks, all the way down to the smallest measurable bits of energy/information vorticitating through the smallest measurable bits of lock. Each smallest measurable bit of time describes a complete vorticitation at every level, from the smallest bits up to the fields as wholes. Each bit of information/energy is therefore inhabiting the entire range of manifestations that is possible to express, in every smallest measurable bit of time; it has returned to its quantum superposition. Healing, from this point of view, could be described as systematically de-collapsing the wound topology's wave-function, and then re-collapsing it into a healthier manifested reality.
Very often, the wound topology appears to be permeable (or at least mostly permeable), that is, all of it can 'seen' or 'felt' at once; there is no 'inside' or 'outside.' However, it still seems to have a 'density' of sorts that varies proportionally to features of the topology. For example, I may come across a topological feature somewhat like a hyperbolic paraboloid. As I come 'nearer' to the paraboloid, the energy/information seems denser or slower, and moving along/inside the paraboloid itself, some areas of it will feel thicker or heavier than others. It is as though the 'depth' of the wound or area is proportional to the density of energy/information. The density imparts a degree of immobility to the wound that also increases as one goes 'deeper.' In fact, it is like the wound's depth determines the degree of possible vorticitation; at the outer 'edges' of the wound, more movement through higher dimensions is possible, but as one penetrates more deeply, the energy/information is capable of describing less and less of a transformation to its antipode. At the very core of the wound (and thus the core of one of Grof's COEX constellations), I will find a bit that has been frozen completely in place by the wound; a bit that corresponds to a muscular tension, buried so deeply it has been forgotten, that was incapable of being relaxed; a psychological trauma that has created an unhealthy description of reality (that is, a sub- or unconscious 'rule' has been formed that orders all relevant information according to itself, producing an experienced reality in accordance with the rule); an energetic blockage of some type; and various other related issues. Treating wounds with this paradigm thus involves restoring mobility to the wounded area, starting with the less-frozen 'outer' areas (corresponding to outer areas of the COEX constellation), moving 'inward' to eventually reach the core of the wound, where trauma has created an exclusionary "truth" that is systematically exposed to a widening spectrum of possibility, until it is finally healed upon reaching its antipode. That is,
the wound is healed when reconciled with its opposite. Once a full vorticitation has been experienced, a new, healthier manifested reality can be selected from any of the countless possibilities opened up by the transformation.
There is no real conclusion to this; it is simply a springboard to further research.
